Oh! What a (lucky) night!

Just a few days ago, I was commenting to a friend that I had never been lucky before and of cos, had never won anything. Oh well.. I take it back! I just won the first prize in our school appreciation dinner last night! It's kinda interesting because prior to the dinner, I lost the invitation card! Repeatedly, I tried to look for it in my house and in school. Couldn't find it. But in the end, I found it. It always happens to me. Things are always right in front of me and I never seemed to "see" them...

Great! Just a few nights ago, I was at Suntec. Looking at the fountain of wealth, I never thought of making any wishes at all. But a friend of mine actually told me to! Okay. I didn't went in the fountain itself but I stared at the fountain from outside and secretly made a wish... Ahem... to be honest 2 wishes lah! One was to wish for everyone in my family good health and the other, I wish for a little bit more luck in everything we do.....

There we go... yesterday night was exciting. I was telling everyone that I seem to feel a little lucky today, for no good reason. I was very nervous when it was close to drawing the top 10. Kept telling myself, I want that MINI! Walah! I jumped it in full excitment and lost control of myself! It's really a present from God. Thank you! No words can express how lucky I felt.

"Holiday-coming-to-an-end" anxiety attack

Sob.. sob... so much work undone!! Why is it so? The term ended really fast at a super speed of the bullet train. Similarly the holiday speeds on........ my brain and body, on the contrary, slows down like a snail... the nerve connections are somehow "out-of'-order". My amygdala releases this panic attack that causes my heart to pump so fast .... the need to complete the lists of things to do vs. my completely backout mind! Oh! Dear! I fear I am going crazy! The holiday is definitely NOT enough! Absolutely clueless about why my brain isn't functioning at the usual manner?

God, let me finish my work in peace!

I will surVive!

The results was good. I have peace in my mind now and am ready for the next test on 26th Mar. Oh well.. I guess I just have to keep an open mind. No worries. I am always cool.

Meanwhile, it's holiday!! Short week but it's better than nothing. Surprisingly, I am expecting a busy week! Appointments and appointments. I hope for the best! I hope they turn out well. I didn't expect much from these meetings. I just hope I maintain them well. Never gonna let the past happen again. Things must change for good now! Otherwise, I will be left on my own devices.

I really wish for a holiday to somewhere, where I can just bring my camera and a backpac. Walk and walk and take shots that interests my eyes. This reminds me of an old friend of mine who wanted to "install" a camera into his eyes so he can take shot whenever he likes. I had a hard time recalling his name. But fortunately, his name rings a bell now! J.a.m.e.s. Gee... I miss him. I miss his jokes and singing.

God, I pray for serenity.

Brand new view

Just this morning, the sky was clear and clouds were cheery. I realised it's so good to be able to see and smell the fresh morning air. Probably due to the results of my medical checkup. My emotions are catching up on me. I was glad that all my dear machines are still working (even though I felt they are not completely working at it's fullest potential at all). I still have one more test to go through. At least for these couple of weeks, I should still be able to feel the way I feel today.

But thanks to the children in my class! I feel wonderful everyday. They are like my lifesaviour these days. Nothing beats having them to chat, rebuke, cry, laugh, cheer, booo...... with me each and every single day of the life.